Been starting on so many shows lately until I don't even know which to complete first. I haven't been finishing a lot of the shows that I've started on these days and neither do I know the reason why. :-( endings used to be so important to me, because it kinda gives the story a closure. And I used to think that it's very important. Now? I'm not too sure anymore. Maybe the process really matters more than the ending itself. Maybe having a "once", is better than a "never". Maybe this is why endings aren't that important to me anymore. Because without a closure, the story never really ends, and it'll continue living on "forever". Makes sense doesn't it? Haha.

It's kinda weird to see, feel and know how much I've changed over the years. Well, then again, "Change is the only constant", right? Everybody changes. It's a matter of whether it's for the better, or for the worse. For me, I'd like to say that I've changed for the better, definitely. And hopefully others would agree with me too. But I've learnt that how others view me ain't as important as how I view myself :-) so yes, positive thoughts, and good vibes!

Was reading 40 days of dating yesterday, and I read about being a commitment-phobe. I hope I'm not becoming one though :-/ (or am I already one?) Finished reading 40 days of dating today and it left me with so much feels. I guess living in the 21st century, everyone nowadays have a best friend of the opposite gender. And very often, I'll hear a girl saying "Oh how I wish I have a guy bff" etc. Yes, it's true that it feels great to have a bff of the other gender. But at the same time, things can suck quite badly too. You know how people of the older generations always mention that there can never be pure friendship between a guy and a girl? I didn't really choose to believe that in the past. But now, well, I can't say the same for myself anymore. Because I'm in love with my best friend. Yes, my best guy friend. I guess the reason why people say that a guy and a girl can never purely just be friends because at some point of time, one will fall for the other. I guess it's just a matter of whether they say it out or not. Of course some would think that not saying out is better, but I beg to differ. Maybe  that's because I've always been someone who is very straightforward with my thoughts, or maybe because I think that there is a need to. I can understand if it is a rather sensitive topic as bringing things to another level may put your friendship with that person to risk. But I trust that things will be fine if we talk things out instead of trying to avoid that topic, since we aren't bffs for no good reason.

I don't know which is sadder - to not have your feelings reciprocated by that certain someone, or knowing that that certain someone actually has feelings for you too, but neither chose to act on it because it's not "the right time". Sighpie. Time oh time, please be kind. Time is such a scary thing. It can either make, or break things. It's funny how the question in my head used to be "Does he feel the same way about me as to how I feel about him?" but now, it becomes "Will we end up together?" Somehow, after that talk the other day, I became even more insecure in a way. Often, I catch my mind drifting off to him unknowingly. I really want to be patient, and to take things slow and easy. But it really isn't as easy as said.

But no matter what, for now, just like what he said he wanna be doing, I want to cherish him as my best friend too. Above all, we will always be there for each other. Whether we will end up being lovers someday, well, I guess time will tell. Whether we will, or not - things shouldn't change much because us ending up together is just a bonus, and we will still be each other's best friend even if we are together.

So here's to our friendship forever, GH. Cheers to the many more years ahead of us! :-) xo