Back from meeting A and I must say that today has been a great day :-) (maybe except for the PMS weather pffft) A got me 2 boxes of Acuvue contact lenses from TW and wtf it's like half price over there as compared to in SG?!?!?! This is madness! And I didn't get to pay her back cos she said that it's okay :-/ oh and she got me a super duper cute Brown keychain too!!!!! Already hung it on my bag, hehehe. Oh and some pineapple cake goodies which I super love.

This holiday has been a pretty fulfilling one cos I've gone to places that I've been wanting to go, as well as doing things that I've been wanting to do! Had a really good lunch at Real Food earlier on and I can't believe I had so much vegetables today. Definitely a first. I ordered a Rise-n-Shine breakfast for myself while A ordered some Mushroom Aglio Olio which tasted really, really good. All the vegan people should go and try it out! The food there is da bomb man!

We then dropped by Orchard Library before we headed off to the Singapore Arts Museum cos I've been wanting to go there for quite some time already. It's pretty small compared to the other libraries, but it's really a super pretty place! The interior design is soooooo well-done. Thumbs up x100! Anyway, arts has never been my thing, but I've been wanting to go to SAM to take a look since I haven't been there before. It's such a beautiful place. The museum itself, the galleries, and all the amazing art pieces. Singaporeans should really take the time and go there since it's free for us! The interesting thing about art is how different people get to perceive it in their own way. There was a gallery (You and I) which displayed letters from strangers or friends to the person who did the artwork, and there was a letter that stood out from the rest.

"I believe that life is very precious, & that EVERYONE should cherish what they have in the present, as well as respect other life forms. I get strangely upset with suicidal people, and those who kill insects and animals, whether or not there is a need to do so - a threat, a necessity in research etc. This other side of my usually jovial/ zen personality just emerges & screams at people who appear to have a lack of respect for other life forms. Trees included.

The bizarre bit of this is that... I have been suicidal/ entertained suicidal thoughts frequently since I was 8 years old. The internal struggles I face over so often, wanting to end my own life because it was unbearably painful to live, but up till today, I still am not sure what is so intolerable that I just want it all to end. I don't even know what makes me think that death will be a better option, considering I've never died before, & even if I did, I don't carry any memories from an earlier existence.

Another bizarre fact? --> I used to work in a research lab that required me to kill mice in the name of science. Others have killed hundreds. I killed a grand total of 25 mice & I quit a good job. It took me nearly 2 months to get over the 'subtle' effects the killing did to my soul. I hope I don't ever have to kill anything ever again... but... I'm a meat eater *horror of horrors*

I don't really know who I am anymore. I wish I knew, but sometimes I'm thankful I'm still in the dark. Maybe it is better not to know who I truly am... beneath all these hypocrisy. 

Cheers, Happy Face! :)"

Somehow, this letter really made me go 'wow' after reading it. The amount of truth it has is too... true. What a paradoxical world we live in.

Another letter is pretty cool too.

"I find it slightly pathetic that people only say great/ nice things about other people only when they're dead. & how society conditioned us a certain way; formulae how to react under different circumstances. I wrote an enlogy for myself the other time cause I feel it's ridiculous to be glorified only during my funeral. Gee, society. 

My name is ______. Nice to meet you, though technically we didn't meet but the world is too small a place so we never know.

I wanted to send you an empty letter initially because words are so damn cheap."

This letter makes so much sense too. It's so true, and so real. Very often, people only get famous after they passed on, which makes me wonder what's the point? Since they don't get to enjoy that fame or money when they're already in their grave. This makes me learn how to appreciate and cherish the people that I love even more. This makes me learn how to try to see the good in everyone that I know because you never know when it's too late to tell someone their good/ how much you actually love them.

I feel that I've grown so so so much. I want to be someone with depth, and not someone who's just so superficial. But indeed, it's tough since the world itself is so paradoxical, and full of double standards. Sigh. Being alive is a gift but at the same time it's so much trouble. Shall just live everyday like it's the last so that I'll not have any regrets! :-)