Thursday, 10 September 2015

Caught Inside Out today (like a finally!?!?!?!) and I gotta say that it's really so damn freaking good. I wasn't disappointed at all??? I don't get why some said that it isn't really that good though. But to me it is SUPER AWESOME. Damn touching too!!! Gotta say that it's my top favourite Disney Pixar movie of all time right now please, seriously. HOW CAN ANYONE NOT WATCH AND LOVE IT??? Go and reflect please. Kidding :')

I love how relatable this movie is, and it somehow make me wonder if these characters really exist in our heads. Well, they probably do, perhaps somewhere in Imaginary Land and Dream Productions? Yea. The part where Joy realised that without Sadness, there wouldn't be her really made me realise that they pretty much go hand-in-hand together. I guess that's what people meant by without ups and downs in our life, we are pretty much 'dead'. Yea, I understand now. And the part where Riley's imaginary friend sacrificed himself just so that Joy could return back to the HQ, was so damn touching. I cried at that part :-( how brave and selfless of him. I guess in order to really experience Joy, some sacrifices have to be made, and Sadness has to be accepted. I really lavaaaaaa this movie so much ㅠㅠ wanted to catch Scorch Trials as well but there wasn't many seats left, and we totally forgot that it's a PH eve today, so the tixs were much more expensive cos there isn't student price :-( sad. But it's okay! At least I got to spend quality time with my bby hehe :') no much money can compare the time we had spent together today man.

And yaaaaaa, I feel kinda guilty for spending so much today. But it's okay, no regrets actually. Just gotta tell myself to work harder so that I can earn more money, and to spend less so that I can save more~!

Been feeling kinda happy lately, and I hope this continues :-) shall go take a shower and turn in early since there's work tmr! YES, I SHOULD TOTALLY BE SLEEPING EARLIER AND MORE COS MY EYEBAGS ARE REALLY GETTING FROM BAD TO WORSE... SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE. I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER ㅠㅠ

Sunday, 6 September 2015

Should I, or should I not? I guess decision-making is really not my thing. The more choices I have, the more confused I get. Probably bcos somehow, I'll always end up making the wrong decision :-/

Going for overseas internship (OITP) has perhaps always been a dream of mine ever since I went to Poly. Especially to Yale University in the States. And guess what? Yale is one of the choices for OITP this year once again. To be very honest, going to Yale has always been a dream of mine. But nah, I have to be practical. It's too far. It's too expensive. And in Jan it'll be winter. Meaning that I've gotta spend extra money just on winter clothes, how practical is that? Furthermore, USD conversion rate has always been high :-/ everything's so not in my favour.

However, on the list, I saw Murdoch Children Research Institute, University of Melbourne being offered as one of the choices. Unlike Yale, everything seemed to be in my favour. It's not too far away since it's just Australia. It's not that expensive, pretty much still affordable. And in Jan it'll be summer. Hot, just like SG. Or even hotter. But that's okay. At least having to wear less is better than having to wear more, isn't it? Furthermore, I've been to Australia before. Although not Melbourne. And yea, AUD conversion rate has dropped to 1:1. Well, there about.

So many thoughts have been going through my head for the past few days ever since I went for the talk. Okay, it was more like a briefing. Money is a main concern, but it isn't really that much of an issue I guess. I don't really know what's holding me back. And yea, it's a good and rare opportunity, definitely. But the thought of having to spend 10 weeks, or rather 11, in a foreign country, is rather daunting. Imagine having to go there all alone, without anyone alongside. And I'll have to spend New Year's eve, New Year's and Chinese New Year alone over there too. How lonely :-(

So should I, or should I not? Zzz, I really don't know. But so far, everyone has been telling me to just try for it, and just go if I can. I guess I shall not think too much and just try for the interview, right? If I so happen to fail the interview, I don't even have to worry anymore, aha. Meh. Alright, shall go with my gut feeling... Hopefully this time round, I'll make a decision that I'll not regret.

Just gonna hope for the best.