|| "Learning to choose is hard. Learning to choose well is harder. And learning to choose well in a world of unlimited possibilities is harder still, perhaps too hard." —Barry Schwartz, The Paradox Of Choice: Why More Is Less

Happen to stumble upon this quote and basically, this is the quote to sum my life up. Every time when a choice has to be made, somehow, I'll just end up making the wrong choice and end up with regrets of many sorts. And it sucks. It really did. But what to do? Such is life. I believe I'm not the only one who feels this way. And of course, I believe many have made wrong choices at certain points in their lives. Personally, I really hate choices. If given a choice, I'd rather not be given the chance to choose at all. But I'd like to believe that every wrong choice that was made was for a reason, and that somehow I'll still be brought back on the right track. I guess the universe will take care of that and so it's not something for me to worry about.

Anyway, I've been thinking so much again lately lol. Brain ah brain, why are you always so active at the wrong time? Please don't be like this once school starts, because I don't have the time nor energy to deal with your bullshits. So yea. A and I seem to be talking about life pretty often lately. Prolly because we're both not doing very alright I guess? But of course, she's having a much tougher time than I am. What I'm experiencing now is nothing compared to her. Hopefully she'll be fine. Okay, there's no reason for me to not believe that since she has always been able to 看得开. I guess that's really quite important.

I have so much to say about this world. This freaking paradoxical world that we live in. How unfair this world is, and how unfair life can be. But then again, nothing is ever fair, isn't it? Such is life. It's just like how it takes 2 hands to clap. Likewise in a rs, it takes 2 people to start one, yet it only takes 1 to break it. And of course, the other party has no choice but to accept it. Because what's the point of trying to stop the breakup or cling onto the other party when his/her heart is no longer with you? It's pointless. So yea, life's never fair lol. There's just too much pent-up anger and grudges that I have and hold against this world. There are just so many things that I don't understand, and I guess I never will, until the day I die.

Why were we born if we are all going to end up dying someday? Why do people cross paths and end up going on separate ways again? Why do friends and lovers end up being strangers at the end of the day? Why is it that someone is always the one that is giving more, and ends up being the one getting more hurt than the other instead? Why... why... why????!!!!! I know that these are questions that no one can answer, so I'm not expecting any answers. But is this what life is really all about? That people come and go? That nothing ever lasts? That nothing is forever? That the amount of effort that's being put in is never the same? That one always ends up giving and suffering more? Nights like these really makes me hate this world. These thoughts are making me feel so damn useless about myself because I'm just someone who exist with several other billions of people in this world. Pathetic, isn't it? That my presence and absence means totally nothing at all. That the world would not stop spinning just because of me. That I make absolutely no difference at all. People always say that our destiny is being held in our own hands, but is that really true? I don't think so. Because some way or another, I believe that our lives are being controlled. By someone, God, or whoever, or whatever that you believe in. For me, I don't know who that is. I'm still trying to figure it out, but I believe that someone controls us. Maybe that's why people say that everything happens for a reason. Yea.

Lol okay time for bed. Enough with all the ranting. I'm sorry, but I just had to. Then again, what am I apologising for right? It's my blog; it's my space after all. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep with all these thoughts being tangled up in my head. Goodnight, you ugly world.