Decided to start on a new drama today even though I just finished Kill Me Heal Me yesterday. You know the feeling that you get after you completed a drama/ book? That emptiness, that void in your heart that doesn't seem to be able to be filled again just because the story has ended? Yep, that was what I was feeling yesterday after completing the drama because it was simply too good. Gotta admit that it's been one of the best dramas that I've watched. Ji Sung's acting was really good. He's awesome man. Guess it's gonna take quite some time for me to get over this show. The OST is so freaking good too! I can't stop replaying 'Hallucinations' on my music player. I even set it as my ringtone now HAHA. Some crazy obsession that I have there. So yep, I started on Healer today because I had nothing else to do besides watching drama. Been staying in front of my laptop for the whole of the past few days just because I was chionging my drama. Okay, didn't really chiong chiong but still, I finished KMHM in like what, 3 days? Guess I'll prolly finish watching Healer by like Sunday or something, since I've already finished 5 episodes for now.

Anyway, I feel kinda stressed up even though there's nothing for me to be stressed about. Weird, isn't it? But I guess I'm prolly stressing over whether to quit Marathoners or not. I really wanna start working, if my timetable permits, because I wanna make my dream of travelling to places that I wanna go come true. And in order for that to happen, I have to work to earn enough money before I have the ability to do so. If I'm to take up a part-time job while schooling, it's gonna be draining and taxing enough. I don't think I'll be able to commit to my CCA... which is why I have thoughts of quitting. Actually this isn't the first time since I've had thoughts of quitting. But I didn't. And I know the reason why. Because CCA is the only time we have together. If I'm to quit Marathoners just like that, I wouldn't get to see you anymore. And it makes me reluctant and unwilling to quit just like that. But I no longer find trainings enjoyable... So I really don't know what to do. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder why I wanna make myself so tired from all of these. I guess what I really need is a getaway. After all, running away from everything is what I do best. There are so many places in the world that I wanna go, that I wanna explore. I don't wanna be trapped here in this tiny place which is only represented on the map by a little dot for the rest of my life. I believe there are many more things out there for me to see, for me to feel, for me to experience and for me to try. Therefore, I'm gonna make it happen. And I will make sure that I let it happen. Slowly, but surely. Someday, I'll get there. I'll be where I wanna be. I'll be doing what I wanna do.

If only I knew how things were gonna turn out, I guess I wouldn't have done the same. If saying out our feelings were gonna change things, I wish I hadn't. I wish I didn't. Oh well. Nothing's happened. But why does it feel like everything's gone wrong? I don't know what to do, or what I should do right now... This sucks.

Shall go shower and hit the sack since I'm meeting A for gym later. Gotta sleep earlier in case I can't wakey. And I should start showering earlier from now on lol (if that's even possible). Goodbye March, and goodnight world.