It's you again. You're back. It's been a year already. My favourite time of the year is here once again :-) but it also means that 2014 is coming to an end very soon. And the thought of it scares me. Bcos time is really, passing way too quickly. 30 more days and 2015 is gonna be here. 29 more days till I'm gonna see BIGBANG in SG, with the complete 5 of them performing on the stage together once again :') it's gonna be the very first countdown party that I've been to, and it's gonna be with my OT5. Just the thought of it is pure bliss.
So much has happened recently. I'm done with sem 1 and I've alr started sem 2, I've ranked the themes for SIP, I've chosen my specialisation, and MST is coming. I've fell sick, almost recovered, before falling sick again. But yep, glad that I've fully recovered by now.
School's been draining the shit out of me. Been sleeping so much this sem and I don't even know why bcos I haven't been doing much. Not sure why I've been so tired bcos I didn't even attend training ever since I fell sick.
There's so many things that I wanna rant about yet I don't know where to start from. The thought of turning 18 in about 2 weeks really scares me. Even though I gotta admit that a part of me is kinda excited.
So much has changed. My previous posts were about how I couldn't seem to get over you, and yet now I can confidently say that I've alr let go of the past. I'm freed. No long tied down and burdened by the past. Just gonna look forward and continue walking ahead without turning back.
Just when I thought that this clique will remain happy and all with the 5 of us, things had to change. We got sick and tired of each other, we started to drift, we started talking behind each other's backs, we started hiding things from one another, etc. All these - my friends, marks the start of our friendship turning sour. And this is really bad, bcos you guys are pretty much all that I have in poly. I treasure each and everyone of you, I don't wanna be stuck in the middle, I don't wanna be forced to choose sides, but I know that things can never be the same. Well, things don't seem to be that bad yet, I guess? Hopefully it isn't.
And as for things between GH and I, I gotta say that there has been an unexpected turn of events.... in some way. Don't wanna think too much for now, just super thankful to have him by my side. Can't imagine how life would be without him bcos he's always the one there for me, motivating me and all.
Okay, things don't seem to be that bad. But somehow I still feel that my life is pretty messed up...
Super unprepared for MST. Hopefully I'll do okay and I just want the 3-week holiday to come asap. I need a break. From studies. From life. From everything.
Thank god that class starts at 10 later. Must be the coffee that's keeping me awake. Shall try to get some rest now. Off to dreamland, goodnight.